keajaiban doa, selamatkan mamahku

beranikah anda jadi perantara kasih sayang Alloh untuk tetap menjaga kebahagiaan ibu, menjaga fisik dan hatinya, menjaga senyumnya tetap utuh dalam damai yang menyejukan hati. menyelamatkan syaraf kepalanya dari ambang kehancuran, karna stroke yang telah berulang.sesuatu yang tidak mungkin bagi umat manusia akan mungkin untuk Alloh, tidak ada yang tidak mungkin bagi NYA
ketika semua usaha telah di kerahkan hanya doa yang bisa di tempuh selanjutnya dan tawakal kepada kehendak NYA. doa yang membawa kita ketempat yang tidak pernah terduga sebelumnya hanya ridhoNya yang mampu membuat sesuatu yang tidak mungkin menjadi mungkin, doa yang menyelamatkan senyum mama tetap utuh dan lembut tarasa, doa yang menyelamatkan sisa-sisa syaraf kepala yang dapat terselamatkan dari ambang kehancuran.

strength of your spirit

semangat mu yang kuat mengalahkan ketakutanku di kesendirianku mendampingimu,...keyakinan dan pancaran matamu yang tajam menatapku dan menggiringku pada satu titik keberanian dalam melangkah maju di fana dunia ini untuk mencari ridho MU,...keberanianmu dalam bisu justru membuatku merasa jauh lebih terasa aman dalam ketakutan malam-malam ku dan siang ku, kau yang slalu membimbingku walau dalam bisu entah bagaimana tapi hati ini terasa tertuntun oleh mu menuju kepada jalan NYA

Want to sleep for a while

You said you want to sleep for a while then what. Be sides you had done to sleep at two hundred and forty hour, I think. I said why not if you want to. You had been nowhere near me in temporaries. I thought I could have my dad no matter what.

Now I am afraid. I am just afraid of losing my dad. I feel like you are bound of disappear and that hurt me so. This could be our time.

I wish could I have to spend time again with you and that will be a good thing, I think. I used to spend two weeks here almost every summer, but it is been years. And now you want to very excessively take a rest from your a long life some time. Be my guess. I can keep up for you as long as you happy can, I guess.

I do not know why you did that but you look so intoxication that is why. You look so tired but still capable and forceful.

I thought I did take caress our family certainly especially of my loving mom. Nowadays I had to go out but no idea where I will must to go. I would like go out somewhere then I could see what I sow but I don’t know where I’ll go and I don’t know what I see so then if I did it on my life I was like still standing where I was been there before I don’t know why just happening like that. Then what I am supposed to do now dad? I cannot bring myself to regret the decision to leave my journey world. I would miss myself. You know what, I think I would miss the heated this head. For now I’ll promise you dad everything it’s gone be all right especially with mom because I love her I life for her I breathe for her I have blessing from God’s by her smiles then I want to be near her always ever after ‘till the end.

You said you want to sleep for while, dad. If you want to sleep for while be my guess. Be sides you had done to sleep for two hundred and forty hour, I think. Then get up right now or I will catch up you later, just please do.

In this time, I would never give much thought to how I would die but dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go, but I cannot bring myself to regret the decisions that brought me face-to-face with death. They also brought me to relieve from pressure.

In clearly, I could not hold on my mind to think about our journey to every part of the world with you in my life. Therefore, if you just want to sleep for while that is okay with me then, but I believe in tree evidently a fact.

First, you are thoughtful wise friendly sociable explicitly cheerful warm person dad.

Second, I cannot see you alive but I can fell in my heart so well.

Third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with my dad.

Cukup sudah 7 bulan kemarin duniaku tiba tiba membisu,

Cukup sudah ,

Cukup sudah 7 bulan kemarin

duniaku tiba tiba membisu,

Cukup membuatku lemah tak berdaya

Cukup membuatku hilang rasa,

Cukup sudah,

Cukup sudah 7 bulan kemarin

duniaku tiba tiba membisu,

Ketika setengah nyawaku,

sekarat sebulan di meja ICCU

Dan setengah nyawaku lainya lagi tertegun pilu

Tanpa arah, tanpa rasa, smua trasa palsu

7 bulan dalam 38 tahunku,

Yang mampu menggetarkan laju nyawaku

Membangunkan singa dan belati  dihatiku

Dalam waktu yang bersamaan

Mengalungkan sorban dan tasbih dalam helaan nafasku

7 bulan dalam 38 tahunku,

Yang mampu menguburku hidup-hidup

Pada ruang 2 kali 1 tanpa nisan tanpa batu

Sekaligus melantunkan tarian amarah dihatiku

Dalam nyawa yang hanya tinggal setengah

Aku sempat terengah-engah

Dalam nyawa yang hanya tinggal setengah

Aku berdiri kaku melihat setengah nyawaku

Sedang terbaring lemah di ICCU

Genap tujuh bulan ini dunia ku tiba tiba membisu

diam tak menyapa, walau siang terang, tak memanggil

diam membisu, walau ramai fana dunia, tak menyapa

7 bulan kemarin, ada setitik asa yang menggumpal dalam dada

Yang mengalir ke seluruh pelosok nadi,

Yang membakar jiwa pada setiap denyutnya,

my world suddenly silent

sentence was only theory sincere and patience,
practice, only a small man in front of HIS sinful trying to keep his temper because he saw his mother in pain caused by acts of people who, if we do not have guidance that all that happened was the will of HIS then, "tawakal" is a difficult language translated lips, this time the stake of faith in your choice of following the guidance of my god,,,,

been almost a month over my world suddenly silent  after more than 38 years together and more than 13 years ago we were always together now everything is quiet silence, O God strengthened me then how I can talk with others when talking with you whenever I can not, rigid tongue can not get out a word to the others when I can not talk one word to my mommy, my God strengthened me

already half of our street
there is sadness, happiness
everything is beautiful in gratitude
already half of our street
affection, love, firmness,
everything is beautiful in sincere
there to the gratitude and sincere
everything is wonderful when we were with you my god

but ... suddenly my world is silent, ...
when the greed of the world on behalf of togetherness
when the gathering on behalf of selfish hearts
when the property on behalf of world powers

now, ...
suddenly my world is silent
when they tore at his heart and feelings for so long
when they persecute his spirit and body for so long
when they slaughtered his soul and character for so long

argue the truth of something imposed
without any real evidence that can be responsible accountable
without the truth that is worth at stake

everyone has a different strength of heart
everyone has a fine feeling to be on guard
because everyone is not a thug..
which will always be ready with the insults and invective

My god willing me on your will
My god white and clean my heart and my soul
My god's miracle of abundance you desire

because I believe nothing is impossible for you
if you're willing
and unto you is I believe, begged, and took refuge

DIMATANYA KULIHAT SURGAKU

Dimatanya, kulihat surgaku,.....
begitu teduh dan damai saat sorotnya menatapku penuh kasih
begitu nyaman dan hangat dalam dekapan tatapannya
di situ kulihat surgaku